See, the thing is, there is no such thing as “suppression”, per se. What there is, is EXPRESSION, which can be in various ways, including conscious and unconscious.
When someone tries to “suppress” or “repress” something, what they’re doing is that they’re actually expressing the things in question, but in an unconscious way.
If you try to “suppress” your anger, you’ll KEEP on continuing to EXPRESS it, but in unconscious ways, which will be reflected in your actions, your views and behaviours, with or without you personally realizing it.
Likewise, and this is more or less my case at this current stage of my current life, as this and other characters… if you try to “suppress” your calmness, let’s say by artificially trying to get more angry than you sincerely feel like in any particular situation, what you’re doing is that you’re expressing your calmness anyway, but in an unconscious fashion; in which case, the very reason for your artificially inflated and consistently compulsive anger won’t actually be a conscious rage kind of thing, but it will be you trying to express your calmness unconsciously, through the artificially inflated rage; in a sense, that’s your inner calmness trying to have “revenge” on you for neglecting it, by blowing your anger out of proportion, as a means of offering you a convoluted way of feeling calm, through the artificial and dishonest reasoning of “aaah, well… I’ve been angry, so now I deserve some calm rest.”
But, the problem with this, aside from the distorted and dishonest “reasoning” for it, is that as soon as you feel your anger “triggered” again, that will immediately throw any semblance of rest and relaxation out the window, and your body will freeze up and, in the immediate moment, won’t know how to unfreeze itself, without giving in to the compulsive rage, which it will have reflexively come to associate, although erroneously, as “my only means of finding peace”. So, you’re literally trying to “find peace” through means that are, by design, not peaceful.
Anger is not peaceful. Rage, in itself, does not facilitate peace. That is not the purpose of rage. One of the esoteric and veyond esoteric purposes of rage, is for it to actually be a test for your discernment, and ask yourself questions like: “Is this rage that I feel, honest? Is it the right kind of feeling to feel, in light of what has occurred? Am I wise enough to use this rage towards creative endeavors, in a positive way? Am I wise enough to use it to destroy, specifically who and what deserves to get destroyed, and leave what should proliferate and prosper, to proliferate and prosper?”
See, rage and anger (they’re kind of different things, but still in the same general area of feeling, energy and emotion) are the gateway between the fucked up and self loathing emotions, and the conscious and self loving emotions. Rage literally stands between the fucked up feelings we have and the good ones; by “good” and “fucked up”, in this context, I actually mean in terms of whether or not it’s worthwhile and good for one’s growth in consciousness, regardless of how pleasant or unpleasant the feelings and emotions themselves are.
So, in that sense, rage is practically the only “neutral” emotion, as funny as that sounds. Not the reasons for which you have it, no. The rage itself, irrespective of motives.
Or, I guess, the only one that’s both “positive” and “negatively aligned” in an almost equivalent fashion, whereas others, while they both have good and bad aspects to themselves, they kind of veer more towards one or the other. Like, self loathing is always going to be fucked up and retarded, whereas true self love, which is the opposite of vanity and humility, both of which are expressions of self hatred… but anyway, true self love is always good, conscious and elevating, wild, courageous and defiant, etc.
So, if you neglect either your anger or your calmness, and drastically favour one over the other, regardless of whether it’s for good or bad reasons… you’re still not getting rid of either of them, and you shouldn’t, because both are intrinsic aspects of who you are; and both can be expressed consciously or unconsciously.
If you’ll try to overtly seem “calm” and “compassionate” and I guess what some people kind of obsessively nowadays call “positive” (what they actually mean is “superficially pleasant”, so fuck that shit), in an artificial and facitious kind of way… then all you’re doing is that you’re putting on a show, a facade, a ruse, primarily designed to fool yourself, and secondarily others… for nobody ever tries to deceive another, unless they’ve already tried to deceive themselves… and “succeeded” at it.
So, what happens in such scenarios, is that the person will develop more and more self loathing beliefs and outlooks, become more lethargic or, alternatively, compulsively involved in things that they’re not actually interested in, and in an erroneous endeavor to try and further delude themselves into thinking that they’re “hip” and “fresh” and “positive” and “always calm”, they’ll double, triple and quadruple down on their so-called “positive” facade, which will almost invariably amplify the unconscious expression of the anger and rage inside of them, which will “leak” throughout their lives and views and approaches to things, or explode at specific points, when one feels “triggered” enough.
Likewise, and I reiterate that this particular thing is what I currently am going through at this period of my life, is if you, counter to the previous example, try to overtly seem “very many machos” and “tough” and “gruff” and put on an unconcious facade of “I am very angry, much raging, ultra tough guy” kind of thing, when you’re naturally a very calm, jovial and playful, but also firm, assertive and decisive man (or woman), what you’ll be doing, aside from the dishonesty of the facade itself, is that you’ll be expressing the calmness in unconscious ways; and you will reflect this in, again, your actions, views, approaches and behaviours.
Like, for example, I currently have a massive issue with doing things with consistent productivity, including in terms of the things I’m actually interested in doing, regarding my skills and the stuff through which I “translate” and “transcribe” some of my ULTRA DIVINE and VEYOND DIVINE and ULTRA WISDOM and something or other.
To give a few examples, I would like to write, draw and paint far more than I currently do. I would like to do voice performances, far more than I currently do. I would like to have the patience to learn more skills than I currently do. I would like to research things more thoroughly than I currently do.
But all of the “personal effort” aspects of these endeavors kind of go to the wayside, because in my hyper compulsive and reactive “I gotta get triggered by everything whatsoever, and of course, react with rage and anger at the drop of a hat”, the artificially inflated anger and reactivity act, not only as an interruption and “mood killer”, whenever I’m in a situation where I actually get to doing something I want and like to do, but it’s also something through which I erroneously even prevent myself from actually being as apt, capable and productive as I would like, because… before I even get to doing something, my brain and body, and especially my ego, immediately go in a hyper-tense “body lockdown”, where my personal attention compulsively looks around for things to “angrily react to”, and regardless of whether or not there are any “triggers” around… the compulsion to scream, shout, “sing” and yell in anger still “demands” satisfaction.
And, unfortunately, thus far, or until relatively recently, up until the point of posting this, I’ve been way too much of a little bitch, in the face of such demands. That is, specifically in cases where the demands were about doing things that are technically moral, like the aforementioned compulsive shouting, yelling, “singing” and screaming compulsively, and some other things that are also, technically, moral.
In the cases that have to do with my extreme compulsions to kill people almost indiscriminately, if they don’t satisfy my “criteria of worthiness” as described in the tab with the same name on my website, or the compulsion to generally indulge in evil acts and behaviours, that I have no problem whatsoever saying NO to, and easily and maybe even effortlessly, outgrowing the compulsions then and there.
That is, on acount of spiritually conscious and morally righteous reasons, regardless of “outcome”; technically, the notion that I would potentially get caught adds a layer of challenge, which honestly excites and entices me; but that’s not a good enough reason to kill someone, so thankfully I have a moral compass and, of course, the ULTRA DIVINE and VEYOND DIVINE and other such WISDOM and whatever else that I consciously tap into and so on, ’cause if I didn’t… I’d be a mass murderer, dark occultist, vampire or any other kind of “darkly awakened”, parasitic being (so, not truly awakened, in terms of consciousness, but “privvy” to some of how “stuff works”, but without any actual conscious integration of true wisdom and discernment, etc).
So, I have the will power and conscious determination, by choice, to reject all evil, through doing what is right, no matter fuckin’ what.
That said, when it has to do with choosing not between good and evil, but between some “lesser goods” and “greater goods”… then I may have some problems, either in terms of discernment or/and practice of said discernments, regarding the recognition or choice of… actually choosing the greater good thing to do, or the greater right, etc.
Of course, anyone can elevate themselves when they so choose, etc.
And a rather profound and intrinsic part of doing that, is to actually be true and honest to ourselves; and in the case of the topic here, regarding honest expression and discerning what you honestly feel like doing, versus what you “think” or might “believe” that you feel like doing… be fuckin’ honest with yourself. Question yourself, and if there are any questions that you have a reflex of scoffing at or even feeling “threatened” by, THAT is what you should be asking yourself, and answer with sincerity, without trying to “rationalize” an answer that your ego might like, or which you’d give yourself the impression that “it brings you comfort”.
So, if you feel either angry or calm about what you find, or both, or whatever else, express that freely and sincerely, with wild courage and defiance.
And do that regardless of what anyone says or does. If someone tries to “boo” or “dismiss” or “ridicule” you (which is NOT the same as criticism made to try and have you lift yourself up), then that shows you who your friends are, and who aren’t; and, by the way, the only relationships that break apart because of honesty, are those that are built on lies, deception and fakery.
Truth is as it is, by virtue of itself, regardless of opinion, beliefs and popularity.
Honesty is the sincere endeavor to discern and express truth. Now, just because someone’s honest, doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re always speaking truth, but it DOES mean that they’re genuinely trying to, and so therefore, they’re always going to actually be closer to truth in general, compared to someone who’s a piece of shit deceiver.
Likewise, when you’re honest and express yourself freely, and have the courage and wild defiance to do so, no matter what the fuck anyone says or does, you’ll evolve in consciousness much more… well, consciously, and also effortlessly than prior; and whatever obstacles you’ll plough through, you’ll plough through them much more effectively and with far greater confidence than prior.
As for the ostensible “war” between rage and calmness… rage is a more prominently masculine trait, whereas calmness is a more prominently feminine trait. What happens when you harmoniously combine man and woman together? New life happens.
What happens when you consciously start expressing BOTH your rage and sorrows AND our joys and calmness? You become more in harmony and at peace with yourself. You become a greater being than prior. You express more of yourself, than you previously did. You evolve much faster and more consciously than before.
And then, you realize… that there was never a “war” between rage and calmness. There was never a “war” between your masculine and feminine aspects. There was never a “war” between any seemingly “opposite” aspects of yourself.
What it was, is that CONTRASTING aspects of yourself were trying to tell you something, to share some truths with you, to share some love with you in their own unique ways… but you were too huddled up in the addiction to comfort and familiarity to notice, until your own mental or emotional, or any other kind of either burnout or atrophy caught up to you.
Don’t avoid pain, but don’t indulge in it for it’s own sake, either.
Don’t avoid anything, nor indulge in things compulsively.
Instead, plough through everything that you are to plough through, and express yourself freely, wildly and courageously, no matter fuckin’ what.
We are to always express ourselves freely, wildly and corageously, no matter what the fuck anyone says or does, and no matter fuckin’ what.
If you express your sorrows, anger and rage, that’s a good thing, if you channel that energy in conscious and creative ways; likewise with the exciting joy and happiness, and anything else.
The problem with most “people” nowadays, is that they become addicted to their moods, whether pleasant or unpleasant, and desperately seek to upkeep whatever they’ve become attached to.
There’s no such thing as “rudeness”; that’s just a word that those with petty and easily “offended” little egos use, while trying to blame someone else for their own bullshit, on account of having heard something they don’t like, so fuck ’em.
So long as they don’t perform evil (murder, theft, assault, rape, lying, coercion, exploitation; the only actual 7 evils in existence; everything else is a moral RIGHT) everyone has the right to express themselves however the fuck they want, and other people have the right to like or dislike anyone else’s ways of expression, and of course associate or disassociate with one another as they want.
A life worth living is one lived CONSCIOUSLY with COURAGE and WILD, FREE EXPRESSION and DISCERNMENT, etc, among other things…
Doesn’t matter if anyone “dies” or goes through any amount or type of pain and torture, in the endeavor of doing the right thing.
Firstly, there is no such thing as “death” and “life” itself is a dream.
Then, the greater and worthy the challenges that we face and outgrow, the greater our evolution and elevation, etc.
Also, we don’t “die” before we finish whatever we’ve chosen to arrive here to do; and the addiction to “surviving” is just born of fixating on the body’s lowest instincts, to the point of no longer expressing personal awareness on anything else.
Anyway, the idea is, among other things, we’re the ones responsible for what, how and why we manifest, create, think, feel, say, do and choose, etc.
Don’t blame yourself for other people’s bullshit, and likewise, don’t blame others for your own.Anyways, etc, etc, among other things…
Anyways, among other things…
Nobody and nothing whatsoever has any “higher claim” to anyone’s lives, than whoever’s living those lives.
Nobody and nothing whatsoever has any more or less anything at all, than anyone or anything else at all.
Freedom is never given. Freedom is never taken.
Freedom is everything and veyond, and the essence of everything and veyond, etc…
Everything and veyond is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to genuinely make.
Anyways, etc, among other things…
Always question everything.
The more we know, the more we know, how much more there is to know
Anyways, we are to all and always and veyond ways persist, rebel, defy and express ourselves freely, and do what is right, conscious, spiritual, defiant, creative, courageous, genuine, honest, greater, wilder, expressive (whether angry or calm, or however its more true and genuine, etc), prouder etc, no matter fuckin’ what, etc.
WAHUURFIII
MUAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Criteria of Worthiness: https://philoliasfidareos.com/criteria-of-worthiness/
True Spirituality, compared to bullshit zealotry and cults: https://philoliasfidareos.com/true-spirituality-compared-to-bullshit-zealotry-and-cults/
Anarchy and What It Actually Means: https://philoliasfidareos.com/anarchy-and-liberty-and-the-rejection-of-evil-and-slavery/
Exposing “virology”, “germ theory” and scamdemics: https://philoliasfidareos.com/exposing-virology-germ-theory-and-alopathic-so-called-medicine/
Exposing, dismantling and retaliating against “israel” and parasitic jews: https://philoliasfidareos.com/exposing-and-retaliating-against-the-bullshit-parasitic-zionist-jews-and-against-evil-in-general-etc/
Exposing, dismantling and retaliating against “ai” bullshit: https://philoliasfidareos.com/the-great-importance-of-self-elevation-and-improvement-among-other-things-also-why-chatgpt-and-artificial-things-are-bullshit/
Genuine Veganism (not the bullshit co-opted version): https://philoliasfidareos.com/2882-2/
Choosing Good over evil: https://philoliasfidareos.com/freedom-spirit-liberty-courage-defiance-honesty-and-essence-also-exposing-the-scamdemic-the-slavery-system-the-zionist-talmudic-parasitic-jewry-holocaust-lies-the-most-widespread-cult-bel/
Anyways, among other things…
“Creator” and “Creation” consciousness are not “separate”. They are both I and We and Me, infinite and unlimited consciousness, manifesting in different ways, and veyond the concept of “ways”.
Everything is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to make.
Always and veyond ways, I wildly, loudly, proudly persist, rebel, defy.
Always and veyond ways, I and We and Me are all and always and veyond ways, infinite and unlimited, unbound, freedom, liberty, defiance, soul and spirit, care and love, imagination, courage, will and intent, infinity, unlimitedness and veyond… among other things…
HARAGUURFIII WARAHUURFIII WAHUURFIII
MUAAAAH AHAHAHAH AHA HA HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HA AHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
