Self love, rebellion, defiance and spiritual, conscious arrogance, versus vanity, narcissism and self-loathing

It is a rather infuriating thing that many people in this world haven’t even the slightest hint of self-love, and some even hate themselves, as is evident in their general behaviour and demeanor. Such “people”, whom I refer to as either “the dead” or “dying”, for indeed they merely exist – and in their attachment to their feeble ego, and to the illusion of having its calcified image of its own identity shatter (be it by means of having their beliefs shown to be wrong, or in the event of the illusion of so-called “death” – which is actually a shift of personal attention for various and different aspects of ourselves as soul and spirit), those walking corpses would – in their own vanity, by the way – erroneously scorn and label as “arrogant”, anyone who actually loves themselves.

Of course, this is a mistake that even people who do not hate themselves tend to sometimes make: mistaking arrogance for vanity; two expressions of consciousness and types of attitude or behaviour that are diametrically opposite to one another.

See, vanity is just another expression of self-loathing, with its oppo-same equivalent being humility.

One of the worst and most disgusting lines in “da holee buuk” known as “the bible” (at least, in the manipulated, publicly available versions of it) is the line about how, allegedly, “the meek shall inherit the earth”.


That is just another bullshit propaganda buzz-phrase, meant to promote the utterly pathetic, dumb cuck little bitch attitude of the weak-ass, passive “servant” attitude; a trait that only those who hate and loathe themselves so much, that they literally view themselves as cattle or “property” of another.

That is the exact attitude that always, in itself, brings about and enables the worst of atrocities and evils to exist in manifestation.

Do you want to be a little bitch slave, who “inherits” the prison habitat of our current type of “society” on “earth”? A habitat which, by the way, you helped to build with that retarded mentality of yours (if you have that mentality).

Or do you want to be a truly rebellious, wise and conscious being, and thus actually build and create new and greater things? be proud and strong, creative, spiritual, defiant, wild and loud and proud, freely expressive and freely loving, respecting of thyself, and thus of everyone else, as both in form and veyond form freedom, spirit, liberty, defiance, etc, etc, among other things…

I think it’s blatantly obvious that the rebellious and truly self-loving aspect is, not just the greater aspect of the two ways of existence in question, but the good and great of the two.

Self love is good, and self-hatred is bullshit.

Self-love and rebellion are always through what growth in consciousness is done, no matter the “level” at which one finds one’s self in their journey.

Everything that is good is a form of defiance.

Love is defiance against hatred.

Honesty is defiance against lies.

Truth is defiance against falsehood.

And arrogance is an eccentric and joyous, playful and flaunting expression of self love; in other words, true, spiritual arrogance and loving pride are attitudes that are direct opposites of vanity and humility.

So, while the “weak, pathetic and retarded may “inherit” the dirt and prison they’ve built for themselves” (which goes for both the slaves and the slavers), those of us who are creative, spiritual, defiance, wild, loud and proud, we CREATE and BUILD our own realities and unbound all the more, and thus explore Myself and Ourselves, as infinity, unlimitedness and veyond, through always persisting, rebelling and defying everything, and thus growing and rising in consciousness..

In other words, choosing good over evil, right over wrong, truth over lies, and generally choosing the good and conscious, elevating aspects of Myself and Ourselves, as both the infinite, unlimited and unbound I and We and Me, freedom, spirit, liberty, defiance…



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Those who hate themselves tend to be either passive or reactive, meaning that they’re so scared shitless of consciously assuming responsibility for their own choices, lives and behaviours, that they either completely let themselves trampled by others, or lash out in petty anger (which is to be massively distinguished from righteous fury or rage), at anything they interpret as being the slightest “threat” to their pathetic, cowardly and weak-ass ego. In other words, humility is being a slave to the ego of others, while vanity is being a slave to one’s own ego.

Arrogance, on the other hand, is an expression of self-love, for whereas vanity puts up a wall around itself and ignorantly claims it’s “the toughest, mightiest thing evaaar, so fuck you peasants”, arrogance demolishes all the chains of ego and wildly, loudly, strongly and proudly proclaims: “I love myself and I am worthy! So is everyone else! I do as I will, and so does everyone else! I love myself, and so therefore I love everyone and everything. I am high and mighty! So is everyone! Let’s love ourselves and one another! I AM FREEDOM!!! I AM SPIRIT!!! I AM LIBERTY!!! I AM DEFIANCE!!! HARAGUURFIII!!! WARAHUURFIII!!! WAHUURFIII!!! MUAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Only those who genuinely love themselves grow, learn and evolve. Everything good comes from love, and so it is evident that self love is an essential and all-important aspect of one’s own growth, rise and elevation, in any, all and every regards; and when one grows and becomes more and more freedom oriented, liberty minded, spiritual, creative, intuitive, intelligent, courageous, adventurous, volatile and wild, loud, proud, and therefore of course DEFIANT and FREELY EXPRESSIVE, one is much more ready, apt and willing to inspire and provide a catalyst for one’s self and others, as a reminder for everyone to recognize their own self-worth; and actually, it’s not that anyone “becomes” and “acquires” anything, but rather that when one loves one’s self, one is then more conscious, knowing, comprehending and expressive of themselves both in-form and veyond-form, and thus is more aware of their own selves, therefore more consciously choosing which aspects of themselves as both individual and infinite consciousness they choose to create and manifest, among other things…

Every individual is an infinitely beautiful and utterly irreplaceable expression of who and what I and We and Me, always and already and veyond ways are, as infinite and unlimited, unbound freedom, spirit, liberty, defiance, consciousness, creativity, divinity, etc, etc, among other things…

Therefore, while I may call out the idiocy and “dead-ness” of the masses in general, that is not because I hate people, but rather because I love myself and therefore I am fully and utterly honest with both myself and others, and likewise because I also recognize their own inner beauty, and it’s both mentally, emotionally and even “physically” painful for me to see how much people in general mutilate themselves and how much they’re suffering, without many of them even realizing it.

That’s another thing about self love: empathy. Do not mistake empathy for “sympathy”, though, for the latter is a result of egoic attachment, while empathy itself has no attachment whatsoever. Empathy itself means that someone consciously manifests a higher and higher, greater and greater, and always growing and rising ability to feel everything that everyone else is feeling… among other things…

In other words, sympathy says: “I feel for you, bro.”, while empathy says: “I feel you and everything about you, like I feel within, for and about myself.”

You could also say that empathy is a form emotional and mental telepathy, but more advanced than how you see telepathy generally being represented in movies and comics, which is more akin to looking at a person and reading them like a book, whereas empathy is literally feeling everything they feel, in your own individual being. Everything, with all the good and bad.

Empathy is a trait of the wise and strong, for it implies that one has (to varying extents) overcome their own demons through higher self awareness and self knowledge, manifested through self love and self respect, etc, etc, and is therefore much more apt to know and be aware of others, as well. If you are empathic and are suffering as a result of the entire world drowning in a puddle of its own self-shed blood, and if you likewise rejoice and laugh, smile and cry tears of utter joy when seeing an honest smile on someone’s face, a child’s laughter in the warm embrace of their parents, their hearts singing together in harmony and love… then you are a strong and conscious being, and all obstacles you’ll overcome. Your empathy is a sign of your own inner strength. Cherish it. Love it. Endure and plough through all suffering and overcome all obstacles; in the journey, symphony and ride that is life… among other things…

I and We and Me always and already and veyond ways create our own stories and realities, and all experiences we go through are manifested, by us, because we choose to go through them. The purpose of all obstacles is to be overcome, the purpose of all pain is to be a lesson in becoming stronger, wiser and more discerning, as well as more and more defiant and rebellious, creative, spiritual and courageous, adventurous, wild, loud, proud, etcetera, etcetera… among other things…

Everything that is good arises from self love and rebellion. Love is defiance against hatred. Intuition is defiance against ignorance. Intelligence is defiance against stupidity. There are no “stupid” people, nor “bad” people in all of existence. Those are just retarded behaviours that those who hate themselves have chosen to experience, because they’ve forgotten their own inner beauty and worthiness.

We are to remember, embrace, love and freely express ourselves without any trace of fear or regret; and thus see our own creativity, intuition, intelligence, brilliance, courage and defiance burn and cut through all the grime, more radiant than all the sun and stars in all the cosmos put together, more brilliant than the very concept of brilliance. That is the brilliance of the individual and infinite consciousness, and why the inner light of self love and self awareness is infinitely brighter than all the light your eyes see through their lenses.

On that note, courage is defiance against fear. Honesty is defiance against deceit. Truth is defiance against lies. Good is defiance against evil.

Defiance, therefore, is standing in rebellion against all limitation and saying NO to all that is evil, depraving and degrading.

However, do keep in mind, as well as in heart, that self love invites knowledge and comprehension, which includes awareness of all evil and despair, in addition to awareness of all that is good. It is also worth noting that it is through the knowledge of darkness, that the light becomes more evident and clear. To choose right over wrong and good over evil, one is to be consciously aware and cognizant of all that good and evil actually mean and are.

Being arrogant and self loving doesn’t mean you want to “feel good” or “pleasant” all the time. It means welcoming all challenges and ploughing through them firmly and defiantly, with a smug and deviant, defiant and rebellious smile from ear to ear, looking all the darkness straight on, at the core of its abyss, and saying “Try me, bitch. Bring it on!”

The darkness is not an “external” enemy that seeks to hinder us, nor is the “light” an “external” friend that seeks to help us. They are both expressions of ourselves, as all good and evil in all their forms, are already well within us. When one is willing to face all aspects of one’s self, both in-form and veyond-form, one is free of all that’s plague and rot and suffering. Yet that is also why those of us who have risen above the veils of illusion, are all the more involved in everything that goes on in life, while simultaneously being utterly detached from it.

When you’ll have utterly overcome all suffering, you’ll be effortlessly willing to experience it all over again, if there is still something to learn from it.

Likewise, when you’ll have utterly overcome all pleasures and happiness, you’ll be effortlessly willing to not experience them at all, if they are no longer useful for your growth in consciousness.

Of course, that doesn’t mean you’ll be specifically looking for pain or renouncing pleasures, ‘cause that’s just bullshit, but what I mean is that, among other things, you’ll be neither attracted to, nor adverse to any moods, sensations or any pain and suffering, or pleasures and happiness.

If it’s better for one’s growth and evolution to be happy and glad about something, or sad and angry about it, or whatever else… the growth and evolution is what’s important, among other things…

To live life consciously, one is to be genuinely detached of everything and view it as what it actually is: a roleplay experience; a stage, a game, a ride. It is a work of art that I and We and Me, as both in-form and veyond form, infinite and unlimited, unbound freedom, spirit, liberty, defiance, creativity and consciousness create, so as to have those experiences.

In a sense, although it’s far more intricate than the words themselves would manage to describe, it’s allegorically like writing a story book. The artist and the writer, or in other words the Creator aspects of ourselves as consciousness, are simultaneously detached from the events and lore of the novel, because they know it’s a story, but since the story itself and everything within it is an endeavor of passion and love, an utter expression ourselves as infinite and unlimited freedom, spirit and consciousness, the Creator aspects are intrinsically involved and indeed expressed in everything that goes on in the story, in addition to everything else.

That is why Creator and Creation are not separate. There is no would-be “creator” that’s somehow “higher” or “more important” than Creation, and there is no grain of sand, nor atom nor Planck unit, nor anything else, that’s any less important than Creator.

Creator and Creation are different aspects of I and We and Me as consciousness and such, but they are manifestations of one another. Like an writer and artist who creates stories, and throughout the process and unfolding of those stories, the writer and the artist learns more about themselves, so too does the Creator aspect learn more about itself through Creation, while Creation evolves through becoming more aware and wiser as to its essence and nature as Creator consciousness.

Therefore there is simultaneous detachment, yet at the same time active and proactive involvement. Self love facilitates both of those things in harmony, for through self love we learn to be detached from so-called “external events”, yet in this appreciation of ourselves, we know how to appreciate everything else, and thus our ambition and drive soars and grows higher and higher and higher.

 Thus, we see that all death, pain and torture, and likewise all pleasure, joy and happiness are actually illusions; neither pain, nor pleasure should ever be avoided or pursued, but both are to be faced confidently and defiantly, proudly, strongly and discerningly, loudly proclaiming “I CAN, I AM , I WILL!!!”

Feel all the pain and feel it thoroughly, and learn from it to become more resilient and defiant.

Likewise, feel all the joy and happiness, and learn from it how to be loving, kind and joyous.

Nothing is “random”, nothing is “probable” and nothing is “predetermined”, because everything is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to make.

Nobody and nothing whatsoever has any “higher claim”, nor any claim whatsoever, to our lives than we do.

There can be no “chosen” ones, and there are no “chosen” ones. Only I and we can save ourselves, and only I and we are responsible for doing so. All pain and suffering are always self-inflicted, and all evolutions and elevations are always self-facilitated, by us, from us, with ourselves, individually, infinitely and unlimitedly, and in every way whatsoever, as well as veyond the very notion and concept of “ways”… in-form and veyond-form, always and veyondways…

Everything is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to make.

Freedom is never given. Freedom is never taken.

I and we are all and always free and freedom, imagination, will and intent… infinity, unlimitedness and veyond… among other things…





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“Creator” and “Creation” consciousness are not “separate”. They are both I and We and Me, infinite and unlimited consciousness, manifesting in different ways, and veyond the concept of “ways”.

Everything is always a choice, and the choice is always ours to make.

Always and veyond ways, I persist, rebel, defy.

Always and veyond ways, I and We and Me are all and always and veyond ways, infinite and unlimited, unbound, freedom, liberty, defiance, soul and spirit, care and love, imagination, will and intent, infinity, unlimitedness and veyond… among other things…



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